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My Own Hell

by Still Alive

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WAKE UP PICK YOURSELF OFF THE GROUND. THE SOUND OF DISSONANCE IS HEARD ALL AROUND WE'VE BEEN ASSAULTED, MISLED, WE'VE BEEN ROBBED THE STORM IS COMING, IT CAN'T BE STOPPED REACH FOR THE SKY, ON THE HOOK TIL THE DAY WE DIE ALL POLITICIANS ARE GLORIFIED THIEVES PUT ON A SHOW JUST TO KEEP US ON OUR KNEES BUT WE'RE SO WILLING GET OUT OF LINE, NO MORE FOLLOWING BLIND
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My Own Hell 03:32
IT'S I AGAINST I, I'M FIGHTING ALL THE TIME MY MIND IS INFECTED, SO LOST AND DISCONNECTED THE WARM EMBRACE, MY DARKNESS CREEPS IN BUT I NEED TO COME TO GRIPS, ONE LIFE ONE CHANCE, THATS ALL WE ALL GET IT'S UP TO ME TO BREAK THIS SPELL CAUSE I'M LIVING IN MY OWN HELL NOW I'M BEING HELD HOSTAGE, AGGRAVATED ILL LOGIC AND WHILE I KNOW THAT ITS WRONG, THESE WALLS STILL STAND STRONG PLANS TO TAKE MY LAST BREATH WON'T STOP RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD BUT I NEED TO COME TO GRIPS, ONE LIFE ONE CHANCE, THATS ALL WE ALL GET SELF MEDICATE TO MAKE THESE VOICES GO AWAY THE NEED TO SEPARATE MY DELUSIONS AND REALITY ILL DIG MY NAILS IN AND CLAW MY WAY OUT LIKE A BREATH OF FRESH AIR SUFFOCATE SELF DOUBT THIS WAR WILL NEVER END, I WON'T SUBMIT SOME LEFT TOO SOON, THOSE I CAN FORGET I TAKE A HIT TO CLEAR MY HEAD, BUT I NEED TO COME TO GRIPS ONE LIFE ONE CHANCE, THATS ALL WE ALL GET ONE LIFE ONE CHANCE, THATS ALL WE ALL GET
3.
Enemy Planes 04:01
DEAR LUCIENNE I CAN COMPREHEND ALL YOUR EYES HAVE SEEN IT ALL BEGAN THE SECOND TIME THE WORLD WENT TO WAR ENEMY PLANES OVER HEAD RAINING DOWN BOMBS FROM ABOVE THE SMELL OF SMOKE AND BURNING FLESH, YOU RAN FOR HELP, BUT THEY WERE ALL DEAD. BEFORE IT STARTED, YOU SAID GOODBYE TO YOUR DEAREST FRIEND AFTER YOU DEPARTED, SHE WAS FOUND IN PIECES, YOU FOUND HER HEAD AND THROUGH IT ALL, YOU STOOD ALONE. YOU SAW THE BOMBS FALL, LOST IT ALL AND YOU STILL PRESSED ON DEAD LUCIENNE I CAN COMPREHEND ALL YOUR EYES HAVE SEEN AND IN THE END, YOU LEFT BEHIND BLOODY PLACES YOU'VE BEEN. YOU ROSE ABOVE THE PAIN. YOU LEARNED TO LIVE AGAIN. YOU LOST EVERYTHING.
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Dead End 02:58
POISONED MINDS POISONING LIVES JUDGEMENT FALLS, SEVERED TIES PREY ON THE WEAK, PREY ON THE LOST SUIT ILLUSION NO MATTER THE COST IT WON'T BE LONG TIL IT COMES BACK AROUND BLOOD THAT IS BOILED NOW PLOTS UNDERGROUND HOW WOULD THEY FEEL IF THE TABLES WERE TURNED? IF THEIR FAMILIES WERE KILLED AND THEIR HOUSES WERE BURNED HEADS WILL ROLL FOR THIS SHIT TWISTING WORDS OF A TWISTED TEXT NO LOGIC NO SUBSTANCE LEFT DISGRACE THE DEAD, MAGNIFY THE LOSS ABOVE AND BEYOND, THE LINE IS CROSSED IT WON'T BE LONG TIL IT COMES BACK AROUND TIL THEY'RE GREETED WITH BRICKS AND THEY'RE BODIES ARE BOUND HOW WOULD THEY FEEL IF THE TABLES WERE TURNED? IF THEIR FAMILIES WERE KILLED AND THEIR HOUSES WERE BURNED I WANNA SOLVE THESE PROBLEMS WITH GASOLINE BURN THIS FUCKING CHURCH IGNORANCE LIES HATE AND WASTE. THIS IS A DEAD END I WANNA SOLVE THESE PROBLEMS WITH GASOLINE BURN WESTBORO BAPTIST CHURCH
5.
I SWITCH IN AND OUT OF THE PRESENT AND THE PAST EACH ONE BECOMES MY REALITY GET ME OUT OF HERE I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM GET ME OUT OF HERE I DON'T KNOW WHERE I AM I SEE THESE FACES, THEY SEEM TO KNOW MY NAME I RECOGNIZE THEM, BUT THAT SHORTLY GOES AWAY I'M IN A COMA BUT MY EYES ARE OPEN WIDE MY LIFE IS FADING FAST, IM ALMOST OUT OF TIME THIS IS TORTURE, I CAN'T CONVEY MY THOUGHTS MY MIND IS IN DECAY, MY BODY'S OUT OF SYNCH I'M IN A COMA BUT MY EYES ARE OPEN WIDE MY LIFE IS FADING FAST, IM ALMOST OUT OF TIME I'M STUCK IN A CONSCIOUS COMA IF THERE'S A HELL, I'M IN IT NOW
6.
WHEN WE FIRST MET YOU WERE READING WORDS ON FIRE I'D BREAK MY BACK, I'D DO ANYTHING FOR A SMILE YOU WERE DIFFERENT, ABOVE THE REST BY FAR REMEMBER WHEN YOU ALMOST FLIPPED MY FUCKING CAR? YOU FOUND YOUR WAY OUT YOU LEFT ME IN AN ALLEY ALONE ON NEW YEARS EVE I FELL INTO THE DARK IN A STATE OF DISBELIEF THE TIME FLEW ON BY, THESE WOUNDS HEALED INTO SCRARS THOSE LAST WORDS STUCK WITH ME, I ALWAYS WONDER HOW YOU ARE I DIDN'T FORGET YOU JUST LIKE YOU ASKED WHEN I SEE YOU WE;LL CATCH UP ON EVERYTHING I'LL ALWAYS WONDER, BUT I DON'T EXPECT A THING WE'LL TALK FOR HOURS AND SMOKE TIL OUR EYES BLEED EVEN WITH THE UPS AND DOWNS I'M WHERE I WANNA BE
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TIME WAS ON OUR SIDE, NORTHBOUND I-75 A TIRED MIND AND CENTER LINES, BLUE AND RED FILLED MY EYES ONE THOUSAND QUESTIONS REPEAT, BUT MY ANSWERS ALWAYS CHANGE FACE TO FACE WITH DEFEAT AND THEY PULLED YOU IN TOO BREATH IN BREATH OUT. WHAT ABOUT YOU? YOU DID NOTHING WRONG AND THEY GOT YOU TOO I WAS DROWNING IN MY PAST MISTAKES WHITE KNUCKLES ON THE WALL UNTIL THEY BREAK YOU COULD SEE THE STRUGGLE WRITTEN ON MY FACE YOU STEPPED IN AND TOOK MY PLACE THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS - WHEN THE BADGE BECOMES ABUSED THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS - TWISTED TRUTHS AND THE PLANTED EVIDENCE THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS - MISTAKES MADE AND LESSONS LEARNED THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED - MY BROTHER SAVED MY LIFE

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Recorded at Atlas Studios by master Justin Yates.

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released July 2, 2013

Justin Yates - Recording & Mixing
Collin Jordan - Mastering
Jason Abraham Smith - Art & Design

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Punk/Ska/Hardcore band from Chicago on Bad Time Records.

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